GUESS WHO GOT IT!!!
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MEEEEEEEEEEEE


DAMN DAMN DOUBLE DAMN

I've had an ear infection for almost a year now. Isn't that just wrong? Of course it subsides slightly for about a week... but, then I'll get the stinging cringe of pain that blasts through my ears. Not to mention I've got permanent hearing loss in my left ear.

Here's how it kinda went... I first get a severe sinus infection about a year ago. Then I go to the doctor and supposedly get it resolved, NO. Then I get a severe inner and outer ear infection. Get like three different drops within the next 4 months of that... doesn't go away. I go to a specialist. She PUTS ME ON MORE DROPS. What are those going to do for me? So now that it's gotten this far, they're going to cut a sliver into my eardrum and place tubes to allow the fluid build-up to drain properly. Of course, when I go to school, I feel like crap and I get stuff wrong because I cannot hear the teacher. I'm in AP classes gosh darnit!

Here lies Kiki.... Never got severe ear infections treated and died of a ear drop-like death.

I thought I was doing a good thing.... joined a teen crew were we help our freshmen. My dad, in the beginning, encourages me. Then yesterday happens.

I turn on my computer and finish the summer homework. I open the document to see that one whole VERY IMPORTANT paragraph is missing. Then it dawns on me... I had cut it out and put it on another page to revise it. So I get infuriated. I tell my dad that when my computer automatically shutdown last time, it never recovered my documents. Then he comes over and he's yelling at me "People at work always have these problems blah blah blah!!!" And he always blames me for everything. So I get even more upset and am now starting to cry. He get's even more mad because I'm 'crying over spilt milk'. So I tell him it's frustrating when you're trying to finish homework and all you do is get a set back. I didn't need a set back. And he starts yelling at me some more. Then he made me cry even harder when he told me that I could NEVER try out for the teen crew thing at school this year. So now I'M GOING TO SEE ALL MY FRIENDS AT SCHOOL WITH THERE TEEN CREW UNIFORMS ON, AND I CAN'T BE ONE OF THEM... Then he goes on to call my style of revision 'unnatural, weird, and alien.' At that point I'm crying, I'm very very mad, and I cannot take his freakin' insults. What perturbs me the most, is when he always compares me to people at work. I'M NOT ANYONE YOU WORK WITH!!! I'M YOUR DAUGHTER!!! So now. I'm sitting on my computer thinking of how shitty this is.

He tells me all the time "You need to cut back on some of your classes!!" And I feel like I can't tell him anything... because I would say that If I don't take the classes I feel like I've failed my family and that I've lowered my standards to cat shit. I'm so pissed.

1)I am a former atheist whom is now Christian
2)I have a collection of oddly coloured pill bugs
3)I am allergic to 13 different types of fish so far
4)I like singing, but I'm to afraid to sing in front of people
5)I want to be a family doctor when I get older
6)I am double-jointed in several different places (fingers, hands, shoulders, an one knee)
7)I want to have my house built when I move into a home
8)I've only had 2 boyfriends one turned out gay and the other one moved to a different country...
9)I sometimes feel like I have to find love from God, or my Godmother...because I feel that sometimes my parents aren't to loving.
10)I'm a very loving person even though I wasn't born into a family who likes to be around me.

It hurts me to think that I've gotten more hugs from my friends mom, more than my parents. I need hugs sometimes.

Well, my mom keeps on giving me mixed emotions about getting a cat. She'll be all goo-and-gaa all over the cats and stuff then she'll be all 'eh, I don't know.' 'we don't need another cat'. It's like. I do all this stuff for you, make the phone calls and junk... and just because your upset that I didn't answer the door, they yell at me? This family confuses me and makes no sense. It's not fair, our dogs have a companion.. but our cat? heck no! I take care of my animals, but I have OCD and they never want to do it my way. I want a list made of all the chores I need to do, but what does she do? Nothing.


I swear, cannot have one thing in this house without fighting about it. It hurts me to no end.